it seems that when i get on this thing im always in a bad mood. i think it has something to do with the fact that if im in a bad mood which believe it or not happens quite regularly i think alot about why im like that and why i do ridiculously stupid and destructive things in my life. then whilst im thinking about what im doing im quite. and then it looks like im ignoring everyone or im pissed off at them which makes the situation even more intesnse and leads on to more bad energy.

For some reason since dangar island ive just been in a bad mood. i can really explain it. i have nothing actually wrong in my life and everything really is going pretty good. so what im doing is creating stress and drama from nothing, getting worked up over little meaningless issues that usually i dont care about, geting picky on people and very quickly becoming agitated and annoyed.

the only thing i can explain it on is my anxiety. dangar was so relaxing and peaceful, even though we did get pretty smashed, and then to come back and have all the dramas and crap of reality. Ive been so very distant lately, cant concentrate, day dreaming, moody, bored and spiteful.

i can only say sorry. and maybe reconsider those fing pills.