bored

One day im flat out workng around 16 hours straight then heading out at 2 in the morning to catch up with fellow insomniac for a coffee, burger and some random gaming challenge around the north shore, crashing out at 5am then waking at 9 ready for another heactic day. to.. finishing at 6 and thats pretty much it. Also the other thing is that were finally heading into the last week of the year for the building and there have been alot of moving upgrading adn rennovation between here and the artarmon building. so last week way the first week that library, car2 and client services have moved leaving me essentially with only my funroom friends, one of which is my boss and the other of which is my monkey. love you both but i need to get away sometimes.

So i wander aimlessly from one room to the next hoping to visit and chat, and then get smacked with a flurry of dispair and lonliness as a i realise all my work buddies have up'd and left. wouldn't have been a problem if gabriel didn't finish at the same time as i woullda still been working my ass off on that to even notice the lack of personell in the other rooms.

So i should mention that in keeping track of the scorring battle between me and phil i have lost the last game of pool, won honour victoriously and triumphantly in a game of chess while punishing, humiliating adn almost to the break of crying made phil realise that he simply was not made for fooseball. And shamelessly admit to others that yes he did beat me to 5 in DOA4 while using jan lee and me using that flower girl i always use.

n.b. I did beat scotty once with ayane and then retired, because i didn't want him to ruin my mojo. hehehehehehe. truly i am in fear of him downign me 10-2 again in tag. such a bad day that was. bastad.

chesh - see i am bored

newies resoulution forethought and reflection

this whole year ive had this constant 'ive got heaps of stuff to do, not enough time not enought time. too many things to do' and now. ive found i have nothing to do. ive got to work still for another week. but ive finished all my stuff on gabe and im finding i actually have time at night after i finish work.

i feel like im in this massive work come down. and now i dont know what to do. maybe i should sleep and catch up on some much needed rest. hmm......


nah. im sure its going to get crazy adn hectic again soon.

i should mention now my new years resoloutions while im near a comp, have enought time and brain energy to think about noting it down so i can check it in a years time.
so

no 1. do not work too much. saying this i have already booked n 6 days a week of work al through january. *sigh*

no 2. spend more time with people i care about and actually like being around.

no 3. get fit again. start trainging and sparring with phil. get my sticks back and eat healthier. i scared myself the other day when i checked out my own physical condition adn seen the extent of damage and thinning that these work hours have done to my body. technically im still 65kilos, the same weight as i have always beeen but i feel weaker than normal and can definitely put that down to over exertion of my energy reserves. ie burning out.

no 4. try.. and i say try very lightly. to not get so angry at people when they let me down. which also means to try and not have too high an expectation on people close to me. i know that i do.

no 5. go to phillipines in may. FFS if i dont go so many people are gunna be pissed off. Including me.

no 6. take joy in joyous things, and to not worry when i get depressed. this ones hard but will see how i go. (and to remember that i am not alone and that i do have people there for me if i need them. ive closed myself off from too many people this year)

no 7. car nonsense.

no 8. try to save some money. soo hard. too many things i wanna do, and if i get time and money i will do them.

no 9. fix werk, fune and avatar (computer)
hmm im sure theres more but lets just try these ones. ok. nice

no 10. (last one) buy a frickin digital camera (EOS, preferably)


n.b. 'it is not until we look back in reflection that we can see the havoc of the wake which have affected others'

--:cheshmonkey signs out:--

thank you maree

thank you maree. made me feel better when i needed you.

"sitting in the morning sun, ill be sitting in the evening time

watching the ships roll in,
then i watch em roll away again

sitting on the dock of the bay watching the time roll away"

love this song

pretty much explains how im feeling right now. its amazing how little things can effects your quality of life and that once one goes bad they all snowball together and like cancer spread. The cancer i am referring to is people. people i have high hopes for. people letting me down is a constant in my life, which causes me to be sad. fuck. i can only think of a small handful who are actually there for me and that are actually honest and upfront.

Mix this a little with stress of work, not eating, getting smashed on alchy and drugs, not sleeping over working 4 seperate jobs, people letting me down, being successful and still having finacial difficulties, losing my phone in three weeks and the summer heat kicking all my hormones into a cyclonic frenzy. highs and lows of waving depression constantly sweeping through my body. being sick.

all this results in cheshmonkey snapping rabid like and the first person who pisses me off enough. fuck i have disowned alot of people this year. im not piss off with you people but your just fucked. im over it.

cheshmonkey

hmm summer

lost phone. ti ok cab company has it. i think this summer heat is messing with my head. im going all crazy again. aaaaah. wtf? and i think im about to burn out too. i cant wait for xmas. oh and i really want a wii.

chesh

yeah now im on threadless as well as youtube.

www.threadless.com

go search for me under cheshmonkey

www.youtube.com

havent uploaded any designs yet but i do have a few vid up. mainly from parklife. mob phone vid. crappy ass quality but you get the idea.

cheers

cheshmonkey

michael jackson song

its called "i want you back"

so next time you forget it you can come here and see what it is. classic michael jackson song you can never remember the frickin name of that doesn't seem to be on his history or greatest hits #1 europe collections adn all that jazz.

rnd nueratic

MOEvember

slaving away at my work G5 and coery runs in asking me if im covering moevember tonight. The fundraising event where guys shave their facial hair on the 1st and gro stylish moes for a end of movember celebration at Luna Park. Corey participated and raised essential dolalrs for testicular cancer and beyond blue depression in males the two charities who will receive funding raised from the benefit. Corey being our fishbowl representative grew his more and documented a video diary which featured inteh show across the month.

I figured that i could give them a lift at least and that if i was going to be distracted from gabe work driving them then i might as well shoot the damn thing at exnjoy a night out and then at least i know its shot well. Manned with corey, kelly who so lovely organinsed us media passes and the likes and jamal who dressed as mario. we ventured off to luna park on a wednesday night to cover a great event.

Personally i thought it was goign to be full of idiots guys and would be a little too gay for my liking. i was actually surprised that there were more girls there than guys and that they got into it more than the guys did. Dress up doesn't seem to havea changed much from when we were little except the girls have gotten hotter and weve discovered alcohol.

Featured on the night was a massive double team of the bad guys from dodgeball adn the controversy in loosing to the bumblebees due to cheating. hehehe a borat clone and this cute little brunette who looks amazingly like mamma. ahh fond memories.

A warm summer night moes and hot chicks. pretty much sums it up. then followed by a long night of gabe comping. pretty much summs it up.

cheshmonkey

joes new car

congrats joe on buying a sweet ass ride. If you ever get around to reading this and seeing the pics then you should be proud that the long hrs and hard work, the yelling the screaming the "why the f*&k isn't it working and the pc rage has finally paid off. I know you love it and i think it looks rgeat and drive like a beast. especially when your speeding to kfc on a sunday night with 5 minutes till close along the pacific highway. hehehe. black beauty "BB" if you cant think of a good name. ive nic'd my sisters car beasty because its like a beasty gokart on stereroids. crazy even at 60. ;)

cheshmonkey

LaB Xmas Party

yep its xmas time and everyones out and about and ready for partying. in the last couple of weeks of gabe nowadays and so its rush rush rush to get it all out. been over working and im breaching burn out stage. Getting extremely tired as im working till like 2 or sometimes 5 in the mornign and then crashing and getting up for work at 10. mind you i have been late a couple of times and sleeping through two alarms for two hours last friday didn't do me any favours in getting me out of matts bad books. ;P all good now. all my shots were approved except one which needs a tweak. aahsoo happy.

But back to the xmas party. Im over working and ready for a bit of fancy dress bond style and a few drinks. And i invite K to come along because i know she'd love the night and the chance to get dressed up. ah dont we all. csu's lasting effects. and then i find out the next day that we cant bring partners which means i have to tell her she cant come which means im in her bad books. ahh took nearly a whole day telling her that one. sorry ;(. in the end i didn't even get a chance to get ready and prepare. worked till 6:30 on the dot, off the comp and straight on to the bus.

corey and sie got dressed up. me and matty were just bumming extras but didn't care because there was free grog ;) gotta love an open bar. Cocktail rounds or margiritas and some ginger concotion. shots of tequila and vodka screwdrivers. a few people dressed up and betrand wore a queen mask and i didn't even know till the next day. mappy danced a little jig while prue looked fantastic in her 70's bond girl hippy dress.

Afterwards we (me and corey) managerd to convice a few of the girls to come out to funktrust and in return they managed to convince mappy and all teh exect's and the rest of teh party goers to come too. crazy. mappy and teh execs at funktrust. joe and phil were there and matt busted some old school moves on the dance floor. yeah! he still got it. wouldda loved seeing him go crazy when he was back in the uk. But him and sie headed off for a late night muchie run to maccas somewhere in the city.

crashed at joes and work teh next day was quite possible the worst day of productivity ever. who the hell has a xmas party on a thursday and expects any work to get done the next day when their entire staff is pissed / coming down / hungover. was a great night. hope you learnt your lesson corey. hehehehehehehe

cheshmonkey