weekend of the 26th - 28th june

Lets try and cram all three days into one post. hopefully it wil be quick.

friday.
had no plans so called bec and planned to meet up with her @ martin place to go to the last of the so called night markets in china town. i reckon theyll be back. I rock up to martin street bar in my cool as folkie jacket, which is light brown. And i get there on a friday night after work and im surrounded by suits. I seem to have a dislike for suits as i was bagging them out the whole time. This considering i will probably become one one day and bec and her friends seemed to fit in quite nicely.

For some reason i was in such a smart ass mood i must have annoyed bec immensly who had had a few drinks by then. She was there with a friend of heres called josh and all of his mates. I thought this is cool and a nice opportunity to meet new ppl which i love doing most of the time. Then all of a sudden the group left for home! Home. Incase you missed it the first time. I just get there and they leave. Ok well who is left then. Me and to my right bec and next to her is josh, her friend who shes out with and hmmmm, well thats it. then i realised.

i was on a date. not even my date, but a date with bec and josh. Not a real date but one nonetheless. The thing was that bec didn't know she was on a date either. He was 19 and she was 22. This may not seem like much but bec has matured alot since the rocket and blue wig wearing crazy 18 year old i first met. She mad become more lady like and established. Troubled as we all are but independant and confident.

This 19 year old boy to me seemed very much clueless as to the world. He lived at home and dreamed of buying a v6 commodore, or some similar model. I think he couldn't distinguish the relationship that existed between me and bec and thought that realstionship as a threat. For the whole night i felt in a constant battle for affection. Fighting a 19 year old boy in minisculer social and strategic games about winning position and praise for my ex girlfriend. I foud the whole thing quite funny. A few times he clearly made moves on bec in front of me implying in small unconscious animalistic ways that this one was his.

maybe an older boy would reaslise battles where there is need of fighting. Maybe i see stupidity that exists in him that did or still does exist inside me. I shut myself fromt the world. After having a few too many cokes and waters (no drinking remember)i decided that the city was too much for me and i relly just wanted to get the hell out of the and have a little chuckle about our boy josh. He actually seemed like a genuine nice bloke but showing his years all too clearly. Good luck joshy ;D

oh yeah i also bought a sword too for 20 bucks. first one


Saturday
Sometimes you get in moods where the last thing you want to do is stay at home not matter how crap the night is and saturday was one of those days. They happen every now and then and theyre more common in winter with all weather effects minusing from the total quality value of the night. I started with simply meeting up with the boys (pat and phil and ash pats girl) for dinner down at a pub near china town. I got called and luke and pins and donna, luke flatmate were all heading to the excelsior to check out a band. So we had dinner, played some pool, ash pissed off for work and we headed to glebe to check out these bands. Because pats whipped like we all do get sometimes ;P he walked his girl to herwork near martin place and then back to glebe to drink with us. ohh nice boy you say but sucker also comes to mind.

Me and phil meanwhile caught a taxi who instead of heading straight on george and tehn turnign left decided to turn right and then right again essentially going in the wrong way. then after we stop at some lights he asks us if it was this street to turn right or then next one. We say next one and he turns down the first one anyway. What a fucking dickhead. Then we get out and we find we are still 15 minutes walk fromt he fucking pub.

I dont mind payin gfor a taxi because they provide the now essential as well as the assurance that your going to get dropped off where you need to go. This idiot drops us off at the wrong place and goes the long way. anyways moving on......


We get to the pub and the bands were ok. I actually missed most of the band we went to see because i was punting on the pokies. lost 20. damn. Then the rest were quite boring and as i wasn't drinking i got quite bored. We all headed off luke pins and donna included to the AB.

In my opinion this place for a pub was over-renovated. Everything seemed abit too nice and flashy. Fish in the fish tank. Communist russian designs onthe wall. Long curving staricase. And the patronage were a bit upper yuppish too, but thats only a minor flaw. We got there and were waiting for pool tables when they announced last drinks. They were shutting at 12. - next

Pins left and we headed to scubar. sucked. two girls and 50 guys. no thanks. - next

On to scruffy murphies. U2 cover band and other than that it sucked. I asked luke if he had ever seen ugly people @candies and hes said noe. I realised they were all here. That sounds pretty harsh but if youve ever seen scruffy murphies then you'll realise its fair. They were a few raritites just to dispel complete generalisation but its true.- next

luke and donna left after sharinga kebab and got a little disgruntled at the city because luke sees it every day. fair enough. so they went and me pat and phil walked to tailor square. We went to some kebalas or somethign bar just up from courthouse. Before getting there we were witness to a gang of 15 guys chase three guy sbolting for dear life down oxford street. Who knows what that was about but they better have been good at running. it was nice inside with a good crown. very uppish yuppie while most people seemd to be from a ball of formal in suits and girls in full dresses. It was cold so it must have been important. Met up with brenton and all the band boys. Theyre cool and mad to hang out with. trash themselves everytime. awesome. sucked i wasn't drinking.

Then headed to the cross to go to dragon flies but the band boys were too casual so we headed to empire down the other side of the cross. I remember going here with stony a few years ago and it is just as dodgy as even. Lots of people there evenat 4am but they all looked so trashed. I was feeling sick as by now after so many coke and waters. and it was cold. we slowly and by slowly i mean around 1m a minute. it took over and hour and a to get to martinplace. We had to go pick up ash to either continue drinking (yeah right) or go home and crash. Pat was fighting with her the whole time constantly calling at every phone booth. Then we get there and she says she'll come out and ends up making us wait till around 5:40am. fuck this we said and went home. I crashed at brentons and they sorted everything out by the time i woke up. i suppose couples are meant to do that.

Sunday
Everyones hung over, even me, from the coke and water and from staying out in the cold till 5/6 am. So we all head to the roxbury to get breakfast, counter meal chicken schnitzel. coke for me and beer for the boys. Luckily we find upstairs and apool table which has 25 free games on it. score. so we play pool all day. then i head home and get much needed rest.

see wasnt that long.
hah!

Allan

tuesday 23rd june Farewell James

James is cool. Thats pretty much sums it up. i could keep going on but he is cool. Loyal to his friends he has the best dress style i know of for guys and he always looks after his mates. So james going to america for three months is a sad thing.

great because i would love to go to america even though i dont respect the government all that much i would still love to go there, so its a great life experience for him to head off. But there will be 3 months, 3 cold months where james will not be out partying with us. I told him ill drink with him when he gets back. Cant wait.

We all went out for a korean dinner in the city, and by all i mean me james and luke. The three boys. Then headed to newtown to meet up with simon and then headed to a cocktail bar for a drink. Some kinda small pub crawl began as we headed down to zanzibar then to the townie. they were all crap and as the night starte dso good it ended so bad. Watching boxing @ the townie.

Will miss you james, come back soon bro.

Allan

saturday 20th june Musicaa

I planned to go out on friday. that didnt happen. before that the plan was to go to canberra for a weekend catching up with mates and drinking with cousins while i pick up my car. that didn't happen. So when my plans changed on friday i was sure that sat would change too.

So since i no longer needed to go to canberra that left an opening for me to fill in as camera man for musicaa. Since luke and pins was heading too along with the lovely jasmine i though working wouldn't be that bad. I got the camera as you know after i got home sat arvo i got ready and headed straight back out to meet up with luke in newtown. Along the way i got a call from pat and he and phil were heading to the lansdowne for a few drinks. "Fuck that" i though, "come along to Candies and ill get you both in for free and we can party allnight".

well they agreed and we met up in newie and went to luke for pre-drinks before heading out. James was there too and so in the end it was luke, james, pins, me, pat, phil and jasmine who we met up with later.

We all got there ok even though we split up for a bit. I got us in and they partied oon while i drank free booze and went around filming the four asian dance girls and got up on stage while filming the djs playing there. Its so much fun beign there and being apart of the whole night. rather than just being one of the people fucked out of their brains while they listen to music.

great night, oh ah it didn't count towards the 3 months of no drinking. - 2 weeks of mouring for the loss of a friend and 3 months punishment for each year i chased the girl- rules of chesh

Allan

friday 18th june

My pans were to go out dancing with bec because she wanted to take me out and i really wanted togo dancing. still do in fact, rnb style though. But she called and cancelled on me while i was @ joes house. I had to pick up a camera and the next thing im playing burn out 3 :D and checking out some dvds and shit they have on their pc's. Such a boys night in. Me joe and his flat mate who i cant remember his name. We stayed up all night and had one of those nerdy nights of talking computer game movie music talk.

We headed into oxford st to drop off lulu at work and headed over to new york style pizza for some food. Headed back to joes and polished off a case of pepsi. old school LAN style. Then got some gaytime ice creams (the best) and some sausage rolls and meat pies from crowsnest and went back for some more boyish kinda shit which included designing the noobz.tv logo. Oh yeah and at some point phil rocked up after work. he's cool, tall mofo though.

Then i crashed out ont he couch. ahh love these kinda random nights especially when you get cancelled on. no bad, bec.

Allan

tuesday 16th June

It cold and winter is drearl on my soul. Not just the previous few weeks but the fact that im a warm blooded tropical south east asian. Damn white blood does me not good so when it cold i die. Anyway my hair is getting long and when it gets wet in winter it stays cold all day and looks crap. ive put up with it for long enough and i thought about keeping it for another year but its really pissing me off and i dont really need the distraction. soo...


buzzzzzzzz..............buzz..... zzzz.zzzz.....zz..

and gone. Shaved

ah beautiful indeed. Its great. ive had some time to get used to it now and its really growing back quite fast but i have to admit it look better on me. Ahh and i dont have to maintain it and care for it. Its great. A bit cold though so now i have to buy a beanie, like a decent on. i was also thinking of a scarf and maybe one of those big oong black jackets. hmmm.

Oh yeah and i stopped drinking well for a bit anyway. A couple of reasons mainly to recover some of my mind. and also tos ave cash and also self inficted punishment. my way of doing things if you dont get that last one.

Met up with westy and headed to newtown for dinner. Ended up at the courthouse for a counter meal because i had heard of it from simon who i ran into @ tropfest and he worked there. I got a chicken schnitzel and dave got salty pepper squid. Both were really bland and i kinda wished for happy chef afterwards. oh well. next time.


Allan

monday 15th coffee with K

Work has tired me again and i was still worried about what was happening between me and K. After stressing out from my depression hit i gave it a long thought and decided i needed to talk to her about everything. We met up for coffee and then had a chat about me and my problems. the night was actually quite nice and i was going in to tell her i was backing off. I needed clarity and space. After the nights events i found i had lost my girl and my best friend and was even lonlier than when i had left.

Its always a bad thing to lose friends especially when you care about them. I not only lost her but i also lost the friends i made through her which i am sure i wont see again. It make me sad to close people out but its the only way. I become too fond of people and i have trouble expressing myself with people. If i dont know them and i dont care if i never see them again then yeah fuck em, who gives a shit. but if i actually appreciate and respect someone then i struggle to be myself. Only when all barriers have been crossed and theres nothing left in the world to lose people find out what im really like. Even then they realise they know nothing about me other than shards of fragments i reveal in uncertainty.

Closure is good and focus important. Time to move on and find another chicky. Good bye K and good luck. Will miss you in my life.

;P

Allan

fing template

Ok so my blogs fucked up a bit now and all the side bar shit seems to be dropping to the bottom and i dont know why. I could fix it but i couldn't be arsed testing and finding out why its fucked so its gunna stay like this until i get too annoyed with it and just fix it. Bloody annoying crap. I hat it when it fucking changes for now reason. happened his time last year too.

im behind on posts too.

Allan

recovery and dinner

spent sunday with joel and oi, getting food and catching up with shaun and trang before we had to go. Me and joel headed off to haymarket food court for some happy chef in remeniscence of the fact that we used to do this 7 years ago and paying tribute to the time that has passed.

After getting home i crashed for an hour then headed to bec house for dinner. I was a little out of it that day and on the way there i got onthe right bus he 421 to glebe but for some reason i thought towards parramatta wasn't the right way and caught the bus back to the city. It wasn't until i was past town hall that i realised. I had to get off at wynyard catch a train back to central where i waslked the exact same path to the same bus stop i was at 20 minutes earlier.

Eventually i got to becs and we had hamburgers for dinner and a nice chat about life. Love those chats with people. Working out the little intricacies that make up the world and influences the deciscions we make. The small uneventful circumstances that control our lives and trying to understand something that cannot be understood. Upon reflection we can all see how far from the truth we trully are. Its good to talk it out with other people because at least you have morethan one mind working on the problem together and one thing i learnt from first year of uni is that stepping back from the painting always gives you a different perspective. Fundamentally turning off tunnel vision.

So dinner was a nice distraction before the sound of alarms preach into my ears that i need to go to work.

week post depression and bamboo

A slow week considering my weekend. It usually is that was after epression hits. Time slows down and cruelly makes you wade through ever moment of pain that inflicts upon you. It went slow but time cant stay still forever and eventually you realise in reflection that time has passed and things start to feel better and then you can laugh at the ridicule you put your self through. The Problem remains though you still dont have control and cant stop it from hitting you again.

I had dinner at mattyg's place on wednesday and then had happy chef with luke after doing some shopping in newtown on thursday. Friday i headed out to my sisters and had a chat with her about everything in my life and i have to say, big sisters are good at doing their job sometimes. It was also good to see che che and kizito once again. such a cutey those to are.

Saturday, i got picked up by joel and oi and we headed into the city to meet up with trang one of oi's friends from brisbane. We all met up with shaun another friend and bren(dan) the funny asian metrosexual who also brought along a few girls to entertain us. sorry cant remember all your names.

we headed into darling harbour and had chintas chinese. There was no alchy allowed so me and joel smuggled the hennessey into our coke while the others had house wine.

the others headed straight to the club afterwards while me and joel headed back to the hotel for some more hennessey. Along the way piss head joel drops the swipe card for the hotel somewhere between haymarket and sarling harbour. We get to the front of the hotel before he realises that its gone. "there was a point where i remember definitely having it" claims joel so we head back to that point to try and find it always looking for the card on our way.

We come to a intersection a few blocks up which has construction on it to the point where the pathway thins to a small wooden board covering a dry hole in the ground. Single file we stop behind a group of people and the next thing i see is joels hand reaching down into the blackness of night and magically pulling this card out of thin air. "jow the f*uck, did you find that" came out of my mouth is complete awe and surprise at the bullshite i had just witnessed.

And he recalls to me, "i didn't even know what i was holding and then the next thing i realise was, oh! sweet the card, and it was in my hand". Some times the mind just slaps the body around and takes control for a few seconds while the most blatantly obvious thing needs to be done and once its done gives it back. amazing

Anyways, we head back to the hotel have a few hennesseys while watching music max, yay!, and then made our way to bamboo. By cab of course, there was no way we could have made it there on foot and not get lost.

Bamboo was pretty packed and we were greeted by kong and noi,upon arrival who got there a few minutes before us. Inside bamboo was a club pretty much packed with asians. Not the drugged crack heads of nightclubs but regular alcho asians hitting the club and doing some dancing to so rnb and hip hop tunes. This is what ive missed. As much as i love getting into the dance and techno, funk beats breaks and bass, i love getting into some good bassy rnb. Theyre all the songs youve heard before but its just good to dance to without too much sweat.

We got into the drinks from minute one and i hit up the extra dry's first while joel and the other boys got scotch and dry's. finally after years of complaininghteyre getting that i cant stand scotch. Just not the drink for me. Then later im sure they got into the red bull and voddies while i got into the smrnoff's. For a night im not meant to be drinking on i sure as hell am getting pretty drunk.

The highlights of the club for me were watching dan teasing the young asian girls with corny dance moves and watching them as one by one they all fell for his charm, then watch him move on from one girl to the next randomly getting their attention and then ditching it for the like of another girl. Extremely metrosexual he just did it for fun and at the end of the night if he had a girl to take home well then hed go for it. All round joker of the group and funny to watch from my point of view.

Must also mention i ran into dez, shaun and mark from wagga who all seem to have moved up to sydney and partying it up. cheers boys, might see you out again some time.

Allan

Phil Solimons 25th Sunday the 7th

My saturday of hell was over and i needed ppl to talk to. part of the healing process begins with the teaching of my friends of what is whrong and knowledge of their support that lets me know im not alone.

So i met with bec and went out to newtown to catch up with old friends from uni at phil solimans 25th. There was a picnic in the park with frizbees and dogs and lots of canonbert which is fantastic cheese with crackers. I was good to have a chat with bec about alot of the things that are plagueing my mind. It was also good to get out in the sun and socialize a bit without getting pissed. Stress free, me and bec went and had a coffee before hitting the union pub (i didn't drink) and then went further up King St for some thai.

Bec went home and so i had dinner with the boys and stef and tim.

my tat

Ive been trying to finish off the design for my tat, and ive encountered many design flaws in what ive been trying to do. To encorporate all the fundamental elements of my beliefs. last night i had a dream and in this dream i was revealed the solution to this problem. Only two years after starting and now ive finally coe past this block hole. i do seem to take my sweet ass time with important things anyway, the chesh way. long hard and painfully annoying but when i get there its bloody great adn well worth it. So when its finally finished its gunna be a great tat that i drew myself (except for the dragons which ill get vic to draw which is ok) and its original and it has alot of meaning for me.


so now ill explain a little about what its about. (for an interesting read)

The whole thing is a i ching ming coin (chinese of course). The heaven and earth coin, the outer circle represents heaven and the inner square the earth residing inside the boundaries of heaven. The Very inner hexagon is the yin yang which is absolute balance within the boundaries of the earth realm. (Everything having a equal and opposite). The eight trigram surrounding the represent the infinite possibilities of existence. Each trigram is made up of three lines broken or unbroken, beginning middle and end, and the eight trigrams are the eight possibilities/ probabilities or arrangement (or fate, parralel universes or futures depending on how you look at it). Surrounding the earth is the four dragons of the elements earth air fire and water, they fly around the earth eating each other in turn giving birth to each other. refering to the snake motif that eats its own tail. (of course this pic only has two atm. sorry). and they exist within the realm of heaven.

This is just a design so far but the octagon will be a subtle earth and each trigram clouds while the dragons will all be elemental in their own right. The heavens will be a coin and the dragons stamped on them. should look good once its done. Full black and white too.

size about the size of my hand and on my upper back to the left (shoulder blade)

Allan

Anxiety and Depression

There are alot of things people dont know about me and these things i have kept to myself because i am a proud and stubborn person who is passionate about anything i have an interest in. I am successful but i am far from perfection. I have a problem and i keep it hidden away from everyone because i consider it weak and i dont like to reveal myself to people who arn't close to me.

So i will try and be completely straight forward and not to ramble on as i usually do. For around 7 years or more i have been battling depression and anxiety for control and stability of my mind. I know i am not schitzophrenic but i do have two dominant personalities or masks that people know me by. The first would be chesh who exists to serve the purpose of having to deal with people. He is confident, and usually has no problems interacting with people socially. Chesh is the mask i wear when i meet people and is the person most people will know. Allan on the other hand is not known by anyone, except for the few people that are closest to me. My family know of my problems and there have been many instances where i have broken down and cried for no reason.

There are times when i dont know who i am, changing from one personality to the next several times ina few moments. There are memeories i cant access not matter how muchi try but i know are there and then later i can recall them in full detail and remember that i couldn't think of any of this previously. Then there are moment of time i cant remember at all, even though people have told me about them (non drunken moments too).

The anxiety makes me nervous and tense and affects me physically. At the end of high school i had three attacks which put me into a fit state. the final one i was in the bathroom and i hit my head on the sink and woke up lying on the floor of my bathroom. i have only told a few people of this numbering less than 3 and not even my mum.

Of more recent times when i feel an attack coming on i stop and my body stops listening to the signals from my brain. I spend all my energy in just trying to stay in some kind of control and always remembering to breath. This leads to me stopping in whtever it is im doing and standing there for minutes at a time not moving. Sometimes i have laid down in soem random position on the floos and stared at the same section of wall or ceiling for more than and hour.

It is making me physically sick and also destroys any kind of joy that is in my life. Of any accomplishment or achievement i feel no passion or pleasure. It destroys my apetite, ambition and motivation.

The depression plays with my emotions like a child with a now found love for yoyo's. Only two weeks ago i felt like i was on top of the world and now i am scraping the bottom of the barrel. I am so up and down that it takes alot of energy just to try and maintain some sort of balance.

I feel like i need to curl up into aball and break down into tears but there is nothing there for me to be sad about and no tears to cry. In the down time i am constantly in despair and moody. This is why i have such mad mood swings and shift from happy and cheery to pissed off or angry or depressed.

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These are my weakneses that i need to share today. For the last year or so since i got back from phillipines it has been getting worst each week. With work i can keep myself distracted but when a weekend comes along i have time to myself and i think about it too much and then feed it energy. So for every weekend in the last year i have been distracting myself so i dont think about it. Thats why i get overtly drunk every weekend and take drugs to numb my mind. For the entirety of high school i smoked pot so i didn't feel it anymore, but i think in the end it only made it worst.

So when last saturday came i was overcome by a wave of depression crashing through my weakened defeses. Drinking half a case of beer on friday didn't help. So when it hit me on saturday i had to get out and do some thing or see someone anyone. I called everybody that was in sydney and searched for my closest of friends for comfort. But every where i turned there was no one there. And as every hour of pain passed i sat there falling further and further into my own darkness consumed by despair that doesn't even exist. I had to face it. months and months of displaced pain and frustration and my greatest of fears. i was alone. everyone had left me and when i needed them.

I spoke to my house mates after i could manage to move my body again with some kind of control. I assume they had no idea, and mog mentioned going for a walk. I thought it was a good idea but when the time came she opted to not come. So i went by myself. If they had any idea how i was feeling maybe they wouldn't have let me go.

My walk to the servo took my mind to many many places. about my existence and my place in this society and this country and my family and my friends and about the reality that exists around the corner. I am not suicidal but similar thought certainly were going through my mind at the time and i sure as hell shouldn't have been walking the streets alone at that hour in that mood.

I dont know what to say anymore. I dont want your sympathy i just want your support. And to apologise for not being honest with the world that knows me. Obviously their are similarities between my two personalities as well as elements shared by each but i feel that you dont know who i am, and only know chesh. If you call me chesh and not allan then you dont know who i am. No matter how close you think you are to me.

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So my point from here is just to say that i have given up drinking and any further drug abuse and after i return from canberra i will be going onto antidepressants. I hate the thought of being dependant on a drug to feel normal but i cant fight this on my own any more. Im writing this because this blog is a part of the healing process. It is one form of working through the problem, and by talking to the people i care about most i think i will be fine.

Thankyou
Allan Morgan Mosqueda Chesher

drinks at work

there were the usual friday drinks at work which also coincided with the shave for cancer charity event where bec from ambience decided to shave her head. There was a good crowd and she raised a fair amount of cash for charity so good for her and best of luck with the regrowing of hair. Other than that it was a pretty drunk night for em and i think when counting back i downed a full 1/2 case of beer on my own. With no energy and still recovering from the weeks events it wasn't the best for me. you'll see later

May day and the first week

i tried to send you posts emails and call you about may day but just in case you didn't get it here it is.

HAPPY MAY DAY!!!

especially to you greggy and happy bday as well. i pray the wind spirit look sover you in your long journey and brings us safely back to us.

so that was mayday and now i cant even remember doing anything other than going to work and being sick. Tuesday saw me head to work and by half way through the day i was sent home for being sick and told not to come in on wednesday. So wednesday i stayed home and recovered. Trent and megans band played at club 77 and i was woken up at 3am by really loud classical music. Thanks mog.

saturday after

i woke up feeling dead to the world. it had finally kicked in. I had other fishbowl commitments and still had to wake early to get out to stleonards for interviews. I felt sick all day and i wasn't even needed that much. but it was still handy having me around. i went home felt crap and needed to recover.

friday 28th, petes surpise bday

Ok so there was no plan for this night and just after i left work i vaguely remembered a email we got about pete having a surprise bday and for gabe people to go to it. So on the way home i call vic get the details and get a ride there and back. we also had to have a chat about his film in progress.

So we drive around in the cross looking for a park which was nearly impossible at 9pm on a friday night. We find a magical spot just around the corner fromt he club, and on the way there we run into hue looking to cross the street heading to the same party we were heading to. Hue being on camera on gabe. So we go to this little bar just right and across the road from the coke sign. The door is locked and we have to get the guy to open it for us. I find out later that this place only does private functions and from the location they must charge a fortune for a night. but the place is absolutley amazing. The interior is so classical indesign but also has elements of chinese or oriental culture and design intergrated with some hispanic elements. So chinese lanterns and lights with flamenco guitars in the corner. Unfortunately it was too dark for my camera phone and i didn't get any decent images. But all in all it was red and stony. very nice indeed.

Other than looking great the problem with the place is that it was upper class and poshy. So they only had two beers, heiniken and becks, and they were both $8.50 each which is way too much for either of those beers. They did have free japanese rice rolls that were going around which i indulged in freely. I for some reason thought it was a dinner not a piss up so i didn't eat and got there starving. Too my surprise there was only suishi and beer and i wasn't in the mood for either.

I had three beers but felt really drunk and tired, and not eating doesnt help. So me and vic headed off and were to get some food and ended up at hungry jacks. I got food but i still didn't feel like it. We had a good chat and went through the process of his ideas and basic storyline of his film he wants to start shooting. It was a good talk and we got through a few of the details. Its starting to sound very good, but i would like to stay away from the cliches of asian ganster storylines.

Happy bday petey

Wednesday 26th hollywood hotel

Fishbowl commitments saw me heading into the city towards surry hills and the hollywood hotel to interview people involved in a monthly short films night. But as i was hungry i called bec and we went and had dinner upstairs at haymarket. Not simply because im a huge fan of the place rather that i mentioned it and it came up and was conveniently close for the amount of time we had. We did in fact eat at happy chef sea noodle again and i wasn't that impressed with the food again. I got the safer pork noodles and wontons and even still it didn't compare to the newtown resturant.

So after a nice dinner and chat with bec i headed to surry hills which is like changing over to the darker scarier side of sydney, the crossing of the tracks side. Not my kinda place at night time especially when i dont know where i am ;P I call joe and get directions since i had no idea where it was. So after a lengthy call to joe we finally figure out that im a few roads off where he thinks i am and once he figures it out he decides its just easier to pick me up.

So we do the fishbowl stuff, the inners, outers, interviews and some vox pops and some stuffing around with a pole and some dodgy shadow pupets on a wall from a street light, and i realise its getting late and we dont have enough footage for a full show. It gets late and so it was time to head home. A non event of a night in the end. but dinner was nice. thanks bec. xxx

Anzac Day

Another day off work without pay. After the whole month is finished ill have three whole days without pay. Thats gunna hurt my paycheck.

So for anzac day i didn't really do much but i did manage to catch up withwesty and headed out into the city to that japanese resturant in darlinghurst i went to with luke. Dinner was good and it was awesome to catch up with westy again. Pics up on flickr.

Allan