its party time

it seems that when i get on this thing im always in a bad mood. i think it has something to do with the fact that if im in a bad mood which believe it or not happens quite regularly i think alot about why im like that and why i do ridiculously stupid and destructive things in my life. then whilst im thinking about what im doing im quite. and then it looks like im ignoring everyone or im pissed off at them which makes the situation even more intesnse and leads on to more bad energy.

For some reason since dangar island ive just been in a bad mood. i can really explain it. i have nothing actually wrong in my life and everything really is going pretty good. so what im doing is creating stress and drama from nothing, getting worked up over little meaningless issues that usually i dont care about, geting picky on people and very quickly becoming agitated and annoyed.

the only thing i can explain it on is my anxiety. dangar was so relaxing and peaceful, even though we did get pretty smashed, and then to come back and have all the dramas and crap of reality. Ive been so very distant lately, cant concentrate, day dreaming, moody, bored and spiteful.

i can only say sorry. and maybe reconsider those fing pills.

wagga xmas

wagga isn't that bad a place, especially as everytime i go back its this massive high school reunion where i keep running into the same people. Unfortunately the timing was so unlucky that the day i arrived clint left and the day he came back i left. maybe next time. I did happen to catch up with brad and metty lemon and gareth for a night out at the vic. pretty quiet night. i think everyone was saving themselves for xmas eve. Me and alyssa were busting it up on the dance floor. mind you i was wasted on yager bombs. 'P great night. ended up back at blairs house and found out the chick he married is one of d's friend i used to go drinking with in 1st year. crazy how small this world is. actually had more fun at the kebab shop afterwards running into people than at the pub.

xmas did family thing, watched kingdom of heaven, ate food. got angry with family. same old same old. went to capital with sister and joseph. got drunk again, danced it up with maree on the dance floor. heheheh shes so funny. man im sick of that club. nothing changes. its still the same old crapital. keep forgetting but in the end once your back the memories never lie. yep. its crap.

went and took alyssa to see happy feet on boxing day, but not before a few drinks and a game of pool. she loved that movie. i thought the 1st half was pretty close to perfect with character development and story plot. and it felt nice too. then the second half was all needing to finish the story and explain the moral of man destroying nature and all that jazz. Probably should have gone to the farrer and celebrated with all the boys playing cricket but kinda forgot and then just ended up hanging out with stingles for a bit. was good to be back in that same old ritual.

then had lunch at auntie lisa's caught up with rommel for a bit then drove back. aaaaahhhhh. and now i get pissed off with my sister.

fuck joey fuck. thats all

f u fam a lee

Made very long and painfully annoying journey to wagga with sister and two kids. Family have got to be by far the most frustrating and annoying people in the world that you just cant get rid of. Im just saying this because my family are the least affection people who give me the least of consideration time and thought to anything i do and constantly constantly are screwing me over and bringing me down. so to start off the year i am giving them a big thumbs down and a big middle finger up to my family who i am extremely upset, disapointed and pissed off with. I will get over it but atm i dont give a shit what your all doing.